[entries|friends|calendar] ChaosJKid ChaosJKid Queer It's French Bitch. 16, May 26, Gemini, Grey Eyes, Mo-Hawk...Thats it ! Loves: music, Guitar, Drums, Bass, And soon Harmonica...Lauren, Gay guys, ME ! Hates: Fat People, Hicks, Lesbians/Dykes, people that brag, and people with bigger penis's than me..."Corey Dodge" Playlist Blues Traveler - The Hook The Distillers - Gypsy Rose Lee The Bad 2 - Bad 2 Theme Taking Back Sunday - Cute without the e (Cut from the team) River City Rebels - Drunken Angel River City Rebels - Bloody April Links MY myspace Contact AIM:Chaosjkid Email Chaosjkids@aol.com [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

Hmm... [13 Jun 2006|02:07pm] Soo...Lotsa Drama in school, lots of fights and im pretty sure ill be fighting soon. Me and Lauren 9 month the 23rd of this month....comming up THats it for now ~Battle Axe post comment

Been a while... [13 Apr 2006|09:32am] [ mood | distressed ] [ music | Music in my head...Bloody April ] Its been a long time, but with everything going on I have been kinda busy....Me and lauren are gunna be together for 7 months on the 23rd, Im recording a cd with my band this weekend and we are starting a record label at our school caleed, "T.U.R.D." Records it stands for Tune-Up Recording and Distributing...Its really cool...Lauren said some Tony guy asjked her to be in a band...I hope it works out, id be in it too but i dont think they need any1 else. Thats it for now, im in school right now so I gotta go, Love ya Laurenzo IM OUT ! ~Battle Axe~ 1 comment|post comment

Suspended ! [03 Feb 2006|10:27am] [ mood | content ] [ music | NONE ] I punched that kid ian that I said I was going to in the face today, I wasnt planning on it but seeing his stupid face really pissed me off, He mad fun of my family and then proceeded to make fun of Lauren, He got what was comming to him... I got suspended for 5 days and they said they are going to file it with the cops, I really dont need anymore shit on my record but I think me hitting him was called for... I went into the office right after and every1 already new about, Tanner and corey said they were proud of me for standing up for myself...I usually just let things slide but latley ive felt like shit and making fun of Lauren just put me over the edge with that goony fuck... Mr Early was really nice about the whole thing and he said he would send all the work home for me to do...its really cool how being suspended doesnt affect your achedmics anymore. Im going to Laurens house today, I hope we can have some time to have a Justin and Lauren CUDDLE/DANCE PARTY ! WOOOOOO HOOOOO I think im gunna play everquest when I get there to see what they changed on it... cant wait, I really miss her Well thats it IM OUT ! 3 comments|post comment

Wet Back, Fruit pickers ! [02 Feb 2006|01:08am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | NONE ! ] Today I hung out with my beautiful Lauren. I had band practice today, it was good for the most part... But later on, I kinda felt like shit so I went to Laurens house and everything was better... We played everquest and watched a movie. It was wicked fun ! Im going to kick this Ian kids ass tomorrow, He talked shit about me calling me a pussy and then had the nerve to talk shit to my girlfriend, That little goony fuck is done. Okay Im gunna go hang my balls out to dry...thats it ~Justinoid post comment

In keyboarding class right now [31 Jan 2006|09:35am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | You're so last summer "stuck in my head" ] Im in keyboarding class and i havnt made an entry in a really long time, so here it goes...Ive been with lauren for a little bit more than 4 months, Im going to littleton charter school next year, I need to get a job so I can bring Lauren shopping, because she said thats the only thing that will make her happy "IF SHE GOES SHOPPING"... I also need to get a job so that I can go to charter school. I need to save money so that I can get everquest asnd a new computer so i can play with lauren all the time. She is comming over my house today...I can fucking wait, She is spending the night because I opnly have a half day of school and Then I can hang out with her again...Shes so beautiful, I wish I could just live with her, I wish I could wake up next to her everyday, and see her perfect face. I love her. You know how when you know a person for a long time you kind of drift from them, when you learn more about that person you find out the person isnt as cool as you thought. Its the opposite with Lauren, the more I learn about her the more I fall in love with her, she doesnt think I love her as muich as I say, and she thinks that I dont trust the fact that she loves me, but I know she loves me and She promised me not to leave me, so that shouldnt be happening, because she never lies...Ive become so close with her, and ive had so many new wxpierences with her, I just wish she could have new ones with me...she seems to have done everything in her life and Im always the second... I love her, I love you Lauren ! ~Justin post comment

Long time, YEP ! [06 Dec 2005|10:30pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | NONE ] It has been a long time since I have posted anything, A lot has happened, mostly between me and Lauren, and most of it is private so it kinda sucks, I wish I could tell people this stuff, its hard holding it all up inside, but I would never tell people something that Lauren doesnt want then to know. I was just hung up on twice by her. She got mad at me cuz she was on my myspace and I told her to reply to Lanis message and I said put, I love you too....and she got really mad and hung up on me...I tried to explain that I "DO" love lani, but I love her like I love my family...Ive been friends with her for years so I dont see why Lauren doesnt understand, I do see how that make me apear though, It was an asswhole thing to do, and I wish I could talk to her to apologize for it...But I guess I have A lot of catching up to do so here we go. Me and Lauren have been together a lot and I FUCKING LOVE IT ! She came over last weekend, we smoked and watched slc punk...She asked me the question "would you kill someone" and I said "yes, I would kill a guy if I walked in on you two having sex and you cheating on me with him" and then she got really offended and said, you are fucking sick, youre sick...I seriously wanted to cry...Like the girl of my dreams, The woman I want to Marry and spend the rest of my life with calling me sick...It just really hurt, I didnt get over that for a while so I was kinda mopy for a little bit. Then Later me and lauren just started like play fighting out of nowhere, and like I Was going hard on her, but she was holding her own...she is SOOOO tough for her size...it was really fun, she was mad at me after because I won...but we both got over it pretty quick and back to the old Lauren and Justin SNUGGLE PARTY ! More recently, we were talking about how with all her other boyfriends they liked or didnt mind her showing her boobs to every1 and making out with other chicks, But seeing her kiss any1 other than me even if it is a girl, would prolly crush me inside, Im betting That id feel like killing myself, I had a dream that me and lauren were at some party or maybe a punk show, but it was at my house...and we were all in the living room downstairs and she was like dancing on the table and shit kinda ignoring me, then she asked me if it was alright if she kissed other chicks for the hell of it, and like, a tear went down my face and I was like "do what you want, I can stop you" and she started kissing these other chicks, so I walked out of the room and then I woke up...it was a really bad dream, that kind of stuff just reiforces my phobia of losing her, or someone taking her from me...Ive already had to deal with something like that with her and we havnt even been together long, I will never dump her, Im just afraid she will find something better than me...Thats all I gotta go... 2 comments|post comment

Chillin With My Loved one [09 Nov 2005|12:29am] [ mood | cheerful ] I got to see Lauren today, It was really good...I love her, She was all talking about moving and shit...I dont think I could deal with her leaving me like that, I wish I could go with her, but she said she wants to leave this winter...It sucks, I was at her house for a while after school and chilled with her and Corey...It was fun, Then Chelsea came over and we chilled with her for a bit. I went home at like 8ish and then ended up comming back to littleton and picked her up and we went to GG's Grave. It was Bruce Clarence My sister Amber Lauren and I...I peed on his grave then the cops came and told us not to be in the grave yard...So we dropped my precious off and went home...And now im just waiting for her to get online...I hope she does I love her She says that She always says " I love you " first which I Know is a lie, shes just being a poop head...But thats all IM OUT ~Justinoid~ PS: I LOVE YOU LAUREN, DONT LEAVE ME ~!~ post comment

Lauren.... [07 Nov 2005|10:44pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | None ] Today Lauren called me, she was really upset that I didnt call her or anything...I have this wierd thing were I hate calling people, But I guess I should just get over that so she doesnt get mad at me...So, she called and was kinda being mean to me, and it made me feel like shit, I told her I love her and she was just like " Yeah " and I wanted to hang myself, then she was like Im just gunna go, and I really wanted to talk to her but I guess she really didnt want anything to do with me at the time...I love her more than anything...Then I insisted that she stay on and I tried to talk to her, but she seemed really pre-occupied by something, then she was like I got to go, and hung up on me b4 I could respond...After she had hung up I through the phone and just started crying really bad for some reason, Ive never been like this...I kind of pride myself on the ability to not cry, but I just couldnt hold it in...I continued to kinda throw shit and stuff just freaking out, Then I just fell on my floor and it got really hard to breath, I tried to like just relax, but I couldnt. I was breathing really heavily and I think I was hyperventilating...and I just blacked out, I woke up to the sounds of Bruce and Clerence in my house talking to my sister....I just laid there, kind of spaced out and not knowing what was going on...I love her, I want to spend the rest of my life with her, Shes scaring me...Im afraid of what will happen next...I dont think I could live with out her. post comment

Lauren's House [06 Nov 2005|06:39pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | The Distillers - The Hunger ] Im at Laurens house right now, ive been here all day and its been fantastic, She slept at my house last night with paula and corey and it was really fun, I love her more than anything...Ive had an event-full weekend Ive had lots of fun with Lauren, we did a lot this weekend...Well thats it IM OUT MOFOS ! post comment

Bad day at school, Waiting to see my love,,, [04 Nov 2005|12:16pm] [ mood | hot ] [ music | River City Rebels - No Good ] Im at school right now, I got in fight with my mom thisw morning about going to school, I felt like shit and really didnt want to...I didnt even have any cloths to wear. I went to see a play with Lauren Last night. It was great that I got to see her and just sit there with her. I kinda think that she thinks that all I want is to like "have sex" but I just want to spend time with her, and hold her..The play was really good, congrats guys. I had a lot of fun there...I kinda feel bad though because Lauren doesnt like me talking to Lani and I talked to her yesterday...I hope shes not mad at me for it...Im in English class right now, and my Teacher is handing out progress reports and shes being a wicked bitch...Shes this fat chick that hates racism, so we always bash other races and stuff in front of her... I cant get lauren off my mind, I cant wait to see her today...I am prolly gunna go to littleton with corey and Tanner...And im hoping either spend the night at Laurens or her stay at my house, I want to spend as much time with her as possible, she said that she was going away for three weekends in a row, I think I might try to go with her one of the times, Im going to miss her tremedisly, LOVE YOU LAUREN ! I almost got in a fight today with this Georgy Kid, because i heard that he called me a fag and shit, But I guess he didnt and people are just trying to is rt drama between the hicks and punks again...But this geaorgy kid is actually wicked cool and I will prolly start hanging out with him... I stayed up wicked late with my sister last night doing this LJ layout So you better like it every1 BRODY !!! WOO HOO !!! Alright I LOVE U LAUREN ~Justinoid~ post comment

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